Day One
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Day Three
Day Four
Day Five
Day Six
Day Seven
Day Eight
Day Nine
Day Ten
Day Eleven
Day Twelve
Day Thirteen
Day Fourteen
Day Fifteen
Day Sixteen
Day Seventeen
Day Eighteen
Day Nineteen
Day Twenty
Day Twenty-One
Day Twenty-Two
Day Twenty-Three
Day Twenty-Four
Day Twenty-Five
Day Twenty-Six
Day Twenty-Seven
Day Twenty-Eight, Sunday
Sunday. Spend the afternoon at Sunnyside. Still can’t
believe how much I enjoy those gals, Gertrude and Marie. I
almost missed them, by not going. Wonder how much else in life I miss by not
even trying, figuring it would be too hard or too uncomfortable or too much
work. Or I am afraid.
These thoughts floated in her mind as she washed up the
dishes and clipped a scraggly sunflower. She fluffed up the
arrangement, admiring it. Sunflowers. She never got tired of them. Her favorite
flower. Other gals could have their bouquet of roses. She would take sunflowers
any day.
At Sunnyside, Morgan told Marie about the hike yesterday, about
Jimmy insisting it was the ocean. Marie laughed, listening, but she seemed
distracted. “What’s wrong?” Morgan asked her.
“I am tired, discouraged. Here, day after day, I sit in the
chair, I lie in the bed, I walk twenty-one steps to the dining room and sit at
the table. Morgan, you have no idea how much I enjoy you coming. Without you,
here, to tell me about life out there, I would feel lost. Useless.”
“Useless,” repeated Morgan. “That is how I have felt, as if
all I used to do, what was my world, who I used to be, is gone, lost. What do I
do now? I take care of my house, my plants, but shouldn’t there be more than
that?”
Marie said, “When you have a house full of little ones, your
days are full. You are busy. When they get older, your days get emptier and you have to find a new measure of value. The connections you make, not just being busy, that is what is important. Now, I have a different challenge
to find worth. Seems to be part of growing oIder. I guess we both, in our own
ways, find it hard to feel useful.”
Morgan shared her idea from yesterday, of the two-sided
coin, the vastness and the smallness. How the perspective made such a
difference. “ Marie, you have a large
heart. You do connect with those around you. And that is what matters. You still have so much to share, so much love
to give. You have given me more than you can know. My little, narrow world
has become much bigger, and that is because of you, and Gertrude, too. Don’t be
discouraged. Your life is valuable, to me, and others. You are still useful.”
“And Morgan, I can say the same for you. You are valuable,
too, to me.”
Out of the corner of her eye, Morgan saw a gal walk by in
the hall with a big Golden Retriever. She told Marie, “There is a dog out in
the hall.”
“Oh yes, she brings her dog in to visit us. The dog is
Brandy. She lets us pet her, talk to her. I can’t see her wag her tail, but I
can feel it in her body, her sides wagging back and forth.”
“Really? I wouldn’t think the health department would allow
dogs in a place like this.”
“They are certified, or something, part of an organization
that goes to visit at homes, hospitals, schools, even jails, I think.”
“Interesting. Maybe I’ll get a chance to meet her.”
“Meet who?” said the gal as she walked in with Brandy.
“Meet Brandy. Marie was just telling me about her.”
Brandy did wag her whole body. The red vest she wore said,
“Pets As Partners.” She greeted Morgan, then walked over to Marie. She put her
chin on Marie’s knee, looking up at her with big brown eyes. Marie stroked her
head, talking softly to her.
“Marie said you go to other places, too, to visit. Brandy
must like to get out and go places.”
“Yes. She has been trained, knows how to behave, what to
expect, what to do. She is a good girl.” Brandy wagged her tail. “Dogs make an
easy connection with people. They seem to have an innate understanding of just
how much attention each person needs.”
“Connection. Marie and I were just talking about that. What kind of training did she have?” asked Morgan.
“Basic obedience, polite behavior, good manners, simple
stuff. Health certifications. Some of the dogs become much more advanced
to be service dogs, do specific tasks. I just wanted to go visiting with
Brandy, so we just did the basic stuff. We go to reminder classes once in
awhile with other dogs in the group.”
Morgan said, “I am getting a puppy tomorrow, a lab. What
would it take to train her, like Brandy?”
“Bring her to our next meeting. They are starting a new
series of training classes on Monday evenings, they start the fifth of
November. The first one is just information, getting to know what is expected,
meeting some of the others. Here. I have a card, you can call that number to
reserve a spot. How old is the puppy?”
“Five months, I think.”
“That is perfect. And labs are good dogs. They love to
socialize. Happy dogs. Then you could bring her along when you visit.”
“That sounds really good. I wouldn’t have to leave her at
home. It would give us both something to do, something more to think about. I
like that idea. I had no idea this was possible, it is amazing.”
“Call the office tomorrow. They will set you up. Maybe I’ll
see you there. I am Sandy, by the way.”
As Morgan steps out and opens up her life, I just love seeing the hope in her grow. Amazing how much this parallels what's been going on with me... I just haven't stepped out yet... but know I need to :)
ReplyDeleteSmall steps, little things, connections that seem inconsequential, but have impact, even if we don't see it at the time. That is what I wanted to convey, for Morgan, and for the rest of us.
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